A new feeling of "I"

"There remains in my memory one other conversation during this journey. Once when the train was standing a long time in some station and our fellow travelers were walking on the platform, I put one question to G. which I could not answer for myself. This was, in the division of oneself into “I” and “Ouspensky,” how can one strengthen the feeling of “I” and the strengthen the activity of “I”?

“You cannot do anything about it,” said G. “This should come as a result of all your efforts” (he emphasized the word “all”). “Take for example yourself. By now you should have felt your ‘I’ differently. Try to ask yourself whether you notice the difference or not.”

I tried to “feel myself” as G. had shown us, but I must say that I did not notice any difference from the way I felt before.

“That will come,” said G. “And when it does come you will know. No doubt whatever is possible. It is quite a different feeling.”

 In Search of the Miraculous, P.D. Ouspensky, Paul H Crompton Limited, 2004, page 343